I was introduced to the concept of “Pretenders” and “Contenders” in 1985 by Master Gunnery Sergeant Bearup, United States Marine Corps, while attending Aviation Officer Candidate School (AOCS) in Pensacola, Florida. He had been assigned to AOCS as the Chief…
Happiness: on considering self
Some dates and annual events are particularly well suited to marking the passage of time and the accompanying growth or decay of the human spirit. There was a time when I was so anxious to believe in my self-worth that…
A bump in the road
Dawn’s patiently eager specter, Schemes sickly in brightening day, Cruel with well-honed diversion, Silently awaiting its prey, Decomposed jabs of distraction, Blunt needles plunge slowly and deep, Masking a stranger’s true nature, A shadow’s faint outline of sleep, A fluttering…
A damn fine day…
Today was interesting, initially in a bad way, but I managed to turn it around and pushed the PD flat on its back (for a time…). The last two nights I have experienced extraordinarily deep sleep (for me), deep enough…
So I lied a little…
The military was supposed to teach me never to “put myself on report,” not to admit to an error: if an act were truly an egregious offense, you would be caught. Otherwise, getting away with something was fair game. More…
The good, the sad, and the writhy
The old saying to “try to find the good in everything” may be cliché, but in my opinion it’s damn good advice as well. I find myself relying on it increasingly frequently as my Parkinson’s progresses; one can learn a…
Personal strategies learned the hard way for others afflicted with Young-Onset Parkinson’s
“Just the facts, Ma’am” – first, some background on Parkinson’s. Being a progressive disease simply means that the illness becomes progressively worse over time. Add the word “incurable” and it’s easy to see why a person with Parkinson’s Disease (PD)…
Empty
Pain is nothing, Generality of convention, Relative term, sentence, Omnipresence, It’s real. To feel, Prickle, tingle, ache, Unobserved trick, Saturated wick, No course. Full remorse, Acts unfulfilled, Dreams left floating, Death’s ill gloating, To wait. The bait, Life’s solemn promise,…
Proof of life
At the fold of the sky and infinite sea, Stooped and beholden in search of the key, Hunting out clues to a purposeful puzzle, The Scribner intently refuses the muzzle, Dead eager to act and driven past reason, Fueled by…
Breathe life
Life’s simple gift unexpected, Age’s reward overdue, No fanfare of Angels’ direction, Package bequeathed with a clue. No need to be hidden in secret, Transparent of motive or strife, A baby’s first lesson from daddy, Look up; raise head; breathe…

